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P.S. I promise to always keep The Lauren Letter free as my little exercise of trying to make the world a bit more beautiful. If, in return, you could considering giving this post a “like” or share with a friend, it would just mean the world to me.

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P.S. I promise to always keep The Lauren Letter free as my little exercise of trying to make the world a bit more beautiful. If, in return, you could considering giving this post a “like” or share with a friend, it would just mean the world to me.

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P.S. I promise to always keep The Lauren Letter free as my little exercise of trying to make the world a bit more beautiful. If, in return, you could considering giving this post a “like” or share with a friend, it would just mean the world to me.

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P.S. I promise to always keep The Lauren Letter free as my little exercise of trying to make the world a bit more beautiful. If, in return, you could considering giving this post a “like” or share with a friend, it would just mean the world to me.

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P.S. I promise to always keep The Lauren Letter free as my little exercise of trying to make the world a bit more beautiful. If, in return, you could considering giving this post a “like” or share with a friend, it would just mean the world to me.

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P.S. I promise to always keep The Lauren Letter free as my little exercise of trying to make the world a bit more beautiful. If, in return, you could considering giving this post a “like” or share with a friend, it would just mean the world to me.

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P.S. I promise to always keep The Lauren Letter free as my little exercise of trying to make the world a bit more beautiful. If, in return, you could considering giving this post a “like” or share with a friend, it would just mean the world to me.

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P.S. I promise to always keep The Lauren Letter free as my little exercise of trying to make the world a bit more beautiful. If, in return, you could considering giving this post a “like” or share with a friend, it would just mean the world to me.

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P.S. I promise to always keep The Lauren Letter free as my little exercise of trying to make the world a bit more beautiful. If, in return, you could considering giving this post a “like” or share with a friend, it would just mean the world to me.

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P.S. I promise to always keep The Lauren Letter free as my little exercise of trying to make the world a bit more beautiful. If, in return, you could considering giving this post a “like” or share with a friend, it would just mean the world to me.

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Perspective

Three years ago today

Carter’s oncologist

told us starting a family wouldn’t be easy,

and would take a long time,

but that he would live.

Eight hours ago today

the tech

held my hand and said

“I’m so sorry. I can’t find a heartbeat.”

My husband keeps holding my hand

and saying “by hook or by crook”

and I laugh

because I am so grateful for perspective

and a man who is enough everything.

Because here today, laying in bed,

eating McDonald’s french fries

and laughing at Vicki and Tamra

in my aching pain and shock

I am still living out the deepest of my

most soulful prayers.

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America’s Game

I don’t watch baseball

but my father has been cheering for

the Chicago White Sox

since 1976.

A team the pope’s prayers cannot even save

(except for that one time in ‘05).

He shows up willingly

against all credible judgment

April after April

to get absolutely obliterated.

And then does it all again, 12 months later.

He says at least he gets some sunshine

and that next season will be our year.

I don’t watch baseball

but did you know in baseball if you get a hit

3 times out of 10

you’re in the hall of fame?

I don’t watch baseball

but I think the closest thing to magic on earth

is human resilience.

I don’t watch baseball

but I think I could use

to believe in that game.

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Your Appointments for June

sprinkles on everything! / press a chilled wine glass against sunburnt cheeks / girls nights / starry-eyed / cherry red / leave your phone at home / get on a bicycle / ice cream after dinner / and maybe before, too / going gingham / mamma mia / no face makeup / read elin hildebrand / subs with the good mustard and crunchy chips / kisses on cheeks / spritz – hugo, and aperol, and limoncello, oh my! / strawberries with a little sugar / yacht rock / marshmallows and gooey chocolate / dip your head all the way under / arugula salad with lemon and parmesan / protein free poetry / tell me happy birthday (it’s june 27) / i’ll have a slice of dark chocolate cake / and a glass of champagne, too, please.

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What Punishments of God Are Not Gifts?

I’ve been thinking this week about Stephen Colbert and a quote he shared that brought Anderson Cooper to tears.

“What punishments of God are not gifts?”

Today is three years since Carter was diagnosed with cancer. And I maintain with conviction in my bones it is the worst thing to ever happen to us.

And it also was the best.

Because what punishments of God are not gifts?

I have glimpsed what peaks behind the veil — but I also get to pull the curtain back (for now).

Oh, how few are that lucky.

To now knowingly bring my face toward laughter, and sunshine, and tears.

To feel more deeply, and to love more freely, and to laugh it all off with a tipple of good humor.

A better friend, a better daughter, a better wife.

I wish it upon no one.

But I am so grateful.

Because what punishments of God are not gifts?

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